Over and Over Again

Dear ones, 

Chase will be having another surgery.

We are still waiting on the confirmation for the date and time, but yesterday’s meeting with the plastic surgery team confirmed that a stint under general anesthesia and the complete removal of the areas of concern (and a portion of skin around them – present in two very different locations on the body) would be in Chase’s best and immediate interest – “to avoid chances of recurrence”

Of course, those last words made us want to ask a million questions because “recurrence”, in particular, sounds like a cancery kind of word. But nothing of that will be known until everything is off his body and studied thoroughly. 

It’s crazy, because most of us will have something looked at or removed on our skin in our lifetimes – and the majority of removals will be benign. But as we processed last night, we realized that it’s not really about the removal – the surgery. And right now, it’s not even really concern over what the biopsy results might yield. It is the heart-breaking weariness of one more thing. …the taste of drugs in his mouth, slipping into unconsciousness, waking in discomfort, itchy skin, open wounds… all of it. …and dear ones, he does it over and over again and has done it for all of the life that he can recall. 

Last night, I asked him if he was okay and he said that he wasn’t…but that he didn’t really want to talk about it until we know the surgery date. 

Tears or not… choosing thankfulness. 

Moment by moment. 

2 thoughts on “Over and Over Again”

  1. Godspeed, Ellie…to your side and the side of your precious young warrior, while he fights again through this next stage of his battle.
    We will keep Chase in our prayers each day as his doctors and their teams plot his course through the coming surgeries and follow-up treatments. God is with your son as he continues this fight…and He’s by your side every day, along with all the Ewoldt family. May He bring Chase’s battle to a successful completion as he hears the many prayers from all your followers each day. And to Chase…stay strong, young man …you can do this! God is in your corner, your Mom and Dad
    and siblings are in your corner…as are all of us who follow your progress through your Mom’s beautiful writings. We are all praying for you, Chase!! You got this, buddy…stay strong

  2. We are so very sorry to hear that Chase needs to have another surgery and we are praying daily and often. May the Lord continue to help and heal, strengthen and comfort, and bless you with His everlasting love (Jeremiah 31:3) and peace (Isaiah 26:3-4). He promises to continue to carry each one of us through one day, one moment, at a time and we are truly thankful. Praying daily that we will all stay close to the Lord and to each other (as brothers and sisters in the Lord) and to the truth written in His precious Word, the Bible. What a lovely gift He has given to us. With love from your friends, the Hageys.

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