When The Evening Comes

Today, Matt Redman releases his new book, “10,000 Reasons: Stories of Faith, Hope, and Thankfulness Inspired By The Worship Anthem”.

When David C. Cook sent me a copy of the book a few weeks ago, I was delighted to read this book not only because Chase’s story is featured (for real!!), but also because we have met and come to love Matt and his heart for worship and I couldn’t wait to dive into that same joy on a page. So, I mentally prepared myself to feel blessed and inspired by the stories of this light, 164-page read.

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What I wasn’t prepared for was the complete challenge and theological depth that pervaded every single page. I expected this to be a learning experience through others stories – and it is that. But it is also full of gentle soul-preaching: the act of spinning these stories out into a greater understanding of the heart of God found in the Word. Each story thread from Matt’s own life and the lives of others is tied back into the bond of who we are in Christ and who Christ is to us — making these pages anything but “light reading”, and oh, so rich!

You guys, for lack of a better metaphor in this moment (I can’t think of brilliant things when I’m super excited – which I am – about this book!), this work is like a protein shake for your soul. It will replenish you in ways you didn’t even know you were hungry.

Too often, when I hear words like what Matt and Jonas wrote into the “10,000 Reasons” song, there’s a part of me that wants to say: “Well, that’s all very well and good to want to be singing when the evening comes..but I wonder how you’d feel if your life were ever really difficult. What would you write then?”

Gauntlet = thrown. Christ = proved again and again.

For, as this book will show you both in the life of Matt and in others around him, God is found to be enough and singing is possible in the evening not because hardship has never been experienced but rather because they’re in the middle of it!  The worship is often sweeter in the suffering because our heart cry is not just wished upon the “some day” of Revelations 21, but is proved again and again in the now. He is our God and He is with us always.

I would highly encourage you to grab a copy of this book and make it a priority even in these last of the summer days. You will be refreshed and encouraged to press on –

Moment by moment.

Our scars are signs of God’s grace in our lives – signs that we’ve been through something and that we have made it to the other side. They remind us that we are not where we once were and that God has brought about a victory in our lives. Our wounds may have been dark, but the promise of God’s love has been tested and proved in our lives. When we look back, yes we see pain, but more than anything we see provision and protection, and the ways God has made us ‘fruitful in the land of our suffering’. -Redman, page 128-129

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[You guys, I need you to know that Matt’s publisher sent me a copy of the book as a gift because Chase appears in one of the chapters. There was no official expectation or request for a review. This is just me being me. 🙂 ]

Breaking Down The MRI Results – VIDEO

We’ve now heard from all of Chase’s teams.

Here’s a little update with a breakdown of what happened with the MRI and what comes next.

And because I love you, I recorded a video instead of writing a blog. But don’t worry, I won’t leave my day job. xo

#MomentByMoment #ChaseAwayCancer

Chase Away Cancer on The ARC Podcast

Hey, dear ones! Podcast much?

I must confess that I don’t listen to podcasts very often, but this is a good one, and I’m not just saying that because they’re talking to me. 😉 You’ll definitely want to tune in to Tyndale House Publishers The ARC Podcast!

And seriously, you guys, even if you don’t ever podcast, you need to listen to this because Joy and Adam (the hosts) had to listen to crazy Ewoldt family stories and they deserve a really great audience on this cast for that alone.

I mean, I’m talking potty-training-boys kind of Ewoldt family stories. So even if you feel you’re all caught up on Chase’s story and hearing about the goodness of God (Ha. As if…), please, listen … for Joy and Adam… 🙂

Moment by moment…

Of A Cartoon Life and “No Trespassing” Signs

Do you ever find yourself wanting to sit back and laugh at your life?

Not a hilarious sitcom laugh, but a “Oh my goodness gracious stars! I cannot even believe we survived the last week!” type of laugh. The incredulous kind. Because raising kids is a crazy business and raising a neuro kid is crazy on steroids (and that can be taken, at times, in the most literal sense).

And what I’m working up to tell you is that Chase’s second eye surgery is tomorrow. You know, because, there’s nothing else really going on this week… HA.

It’s like he could just feel that it is a crazy season. And whether it was his back-to-back surgeries, the general loss of control, all the eye drops and pain… or possibly the name “Lucas” written in blue marker on his arm that he won’t let anyone wash off… whatever it was and quite possibly “all of the above”; Chase went a little off the reservation. Almost every single conversation has been a you-and-what-army authority struggle, he banshee-screams almost as much as he talks these days, and last week, he ran away from home twice and I found him sitting in a neighbor’s tree house, hissing and spitting about eye drops and having to obey and how terrible and mean we were for asking him to help clean up the toys. With his little body sitting rigid and angry right next to the giant, red “no trespassing” sign tacked to the tree house that his cloudy eyes and mind couldn’t read, and my palms sweating for fear that someone would see us and think I was the worst parent in the world, I had little choice but to embark on a round of oratorial genius (read also: sweet talk) and my best hostage negotiation skills, because, you know, it’s Chase. HA.

He’s missed the bus and he’s thrown fits and if I’m being totally honest and slightly comical, an awful lot of the last few weeks has reminded me of this…

Calvin and Hobbes, credit: Bill Watterson. (wikia)
Calvin and Hobbes, credit: Bill Watterson. (wikia)

And I share this because today, in the shadow of the second surgery, I need to remember that life hasn’t been pretty, but… we’ve survived. And Chase came safely out of the tree house, and there was even one morning when I could tell he wanted to run away from the approaching morning bus , but something clicked and he attack-hugged me with all his emotional energy and screamed in my ear “Mom!! I’m turning it around!! I’m going to do this!!” And though my neck hurt from his bony little arms, my heart was fit to burst with love and joy. Because sometimes the tiniest moments are huge victories.

Isn’t this just life sometimes? It can be an outraged stand-off, hostage negotiating “I so don’t want to do this” thing. And sometimes it’s just straight up “Please God, not this again…” exhaustion. And other times, something clicks and you get the briefest moment to breathe and rejoice in the total chaos and pain.

So we come to the day before another surgery and I guess I pour out all these disjointed little thoughts because it’s a ways of being raw and honest about life with a neurologically-challenged child. I hope it encourages you that you aren’t alone in whatever crazy “no trespassing”, you-and-what-army struggle you face today.

And Chase, he’s in his hyper pre-surgery zone now. He’s looking forward to a few days off school, some post-op popsicles, maybe being able to see better, and he’s already got “10,000 Reasons” ready to go on the iPad.

This is how we roll…

Moment by moment.

Whatever may pass and whatever lies before me, let me be singing when the evening comes… -Matt Redman, 10,000 Reasons

In The Market With Janet Parshall

UPDATE, May 3, 2016 — For some reason, even though I wrote this post yesterday morning, several people didn’t get the news in their inbox until a day later. If you fall under that category, I’m so sorry! But, don’t despair… I have the link to the recording here. You can follow the link to listen to my talk with Janet or to pass it on to friends. You guys, it was truly such a blessed time!

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Oh my dear friends, I’m so honored (and slightly terrified) to tell you that I’m going to be hanging out on In the Market with Janet Parshall later today to talk about Chase Away Cancer – This is EPIC.
I honestly don’t know whether you should pray for me to speak an intelligible language or pray for Janet since she’s the one who has to talk to me. Hey, tell you what…just PRAY.

If you’re in the Chicago area, you’ll find me on Moody Radio (90.1) at 4:00PM (CST), and if that isn’t your station/location, you can follow the link here to find a station near you.

And just about the second that I’m ready to freak out and fall down over the “bigness” of this little talk (I’m a mom in sweatpants, remember?), I overheard this conversation amongst my children this morning:

“Karsten, you can’t be crazy today because mom has to talk to a lot of people on TV. Except it’s the kind of TV you listen to, so stop messing around because you’re stressing her out. And then later, we will watch her with our ears.”
Oh, what a great reality moment. I’m feeling like all my kids need to stay in school for now…and also like there aren’t any college scholarships in our immediate future.
But seriously, come join me this afternoon (and don’t forget to watch with your ears) as we talk Chase Away Cancer and the faithfulness of God in all things.
Moment by moment.

“May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing to you, O Lord, my rock and my redeemer.” Psalm 19:14